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i found something i really did not want to see at this point.
sometimes you just can't ontrol the things around you no matter how hard you try. it's scary. I always like to be in control. but at some point you look around and you find out your face-to-face with something unexpected. in my case, i don't do much about it. I'm not really sure if i get startled or just too much in awe of it that i neglect the fact that it's there in the first place. it sucks especially when something you've hoped to come at an expected time comes before you're ready to accept it.
love for example. it has funny ways of discarding you and funny ways to get you back on your feet. but sometimes you become too engulfed at the time you see is fit and unconsciously you throw it away.
what an irony it is when you want something and just when it shows up you shut yourself from it. teenagers! huh! what a crazy life we live. it hilarious, though, to think that we find it so difficult to run a life that's so simple. we complain too much about it and hope we grow up faster than we should. then, well, we grow old and hope that we were young again. bringing back in our memories the times of glory and defeat, the chants, chears, and beers. it's how life works, i guess. we continually look for something that's not there and fail to see most of the time the things that are there.
i have recently jammed with my friends after i've been gone for about 10 months or so. they asked me where i've been and i said "i've been around." i've been around with the girl i really love that is. they had a few complains about ditching them when i had her, but it mellowed away. i found myself sharing with them all the time i could spend - one in particular. i've been looking out for it. then again. it's not the right time. what the heck... nevermind... she's a friend... although they recently broke up too... well, i can tell... she's already taken... best to keep distance... hell, it's not like she cares...(that's called sour-graping by the way)
sometimes you just can't ontrol the things around you no matter how hard you try. it's scary. I always like to be in control. but at some point you look around and you find out your face-to-face with something unexpected. in my case, i don't do much about it. I'm not really sure if i get startled or just too much in awe of it that i neglect the fact that it's there in the first place. it sucks especially when something you've hoped to come at an expected time comes before you're ready to accept it.
love for example. it has funny ways of discarding you and funny ways to get you back on your feet. but sometimes you become too engulfed at the time you see is fit and unconsciously you throw it away.
what an irony it is when you want something and just when it shows up you shut yourself from it. teenagers! huh! what a crazy life we live. it hilarious, though, to think that we find it so difficult to run a life that's so simple. we complain too much about it and hope we grow up faster than we should. then, well, we grow old and hope that we were young again. bringing back in our memories the times of glory and defeat, the chants, chears, and beers. it's how life works, i guess. we continually look for something that's not there and fail to see most of the time the things that are there.
i have recently jammed with my friends after i've been gone for about 10 months or so. they asked me where i've been and i said "i've been around." i've been around with the girl i really love that is. they had a few complains about ditching them when i had her, but it mellowed away. i found myself sharing with them all the time i could spend - one in particular. i've been looking out for it. then again. it's not the right time. what the heck... nevermind... she's a friend... although they recently broke up too... well, i can tell... she's already taken... best to keep distance... hell, it's not like she cares...(that's called sour-graping by the way)
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